Take Me As You Are

When I see the chance
I take it
Damn the consequence
When I want a moment
I make it
No time for lament
Look inside
See who you are
Look at the shadow you leave
Who can you see
When you look too close
Try to understand yourself
Take what you need
Be who you have to be
Do just what you need

Did you look at the whole of you
Did you see the truth
Are you happy with who you are
Can you accept who you see

When I want to take the time
It's mine for the taking
When I need to keep myself whole
No one can break me
I take what I need
I give what I want
Do you know what that means
Do you live like me
Are you a shadow of the past
Are you a piece of the whole
Can you be happy with you
Can you take it all

Did you see what I saw
In the darkness of the night
Did you take what I gave
Did you keep only to yourself

Is there someone inside
You don't think you like
Is there another you
Someone you need to hide
Can you look at yourself
See who you are
Accept the shadows within yourself
As part of the truth you live
Did you let go
Of the time you can't accept
Can you let the past lie
Can you let yourself rest

Do you need to face the past
To see the future you
Do you need to look beyond now
To know the real truth

Are you free to feel
To live as you choose
Are you happy now
Are you really doing what you want to do
Let it go
Live for now
Face the past another day
Life is waiting for you
Give in give up
Be free to trust
Let go let be
The pain you carry inside
Just be you be me
And let it be now

See feel know trust
Life is waiting on you
Go stay be now
Do what you have to do

I have the time
I have the pain
I am the shadow
I am the same
Living in the now
Carrying the past
Taking every moment
Giving no trust
It's the way I know
It's the only truth
I can't change what I am
I can't change who

I gave what I could spare
Nothing much I could do
I keep all that I am
I know no other truth

Existing more than living
Being nothing more
Taking nothing given
Giving nothing

Just another night
A long list of them
A moment lost to time
More lovers than friends
Alone once again
With thoughts too big to share
I sit in the shadows
And listen to the darkness in my head
What can I say
What can I do
This is the only way
I can live with my truth

Let it go
Not just yet
It's all that keeps me here
Give it up
Don't know how
It's all I know is real

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Throughout The Years

It's time to walk away
To say one last goodbye
I know what we had was wrong
But you brought peace into my life

You kiss me and you brush my cheek
Hold me close one last time
You ask me in a broken voice
Just for one last smile

You told me you were falling in love
I asked you "please don't do it"
I couldn't tell you when you asked me too
That I felt the same as you did

A little piece of my heart has gone
Taken away by you
But the happiness you brought to my life
Will always remain true

It's time to walk away
To wipe away the tears
I know I had no right to you
But you'll be with me through the years

You showed me how to laugh
At nothing at all that mattered
You shared with me your special place
Now my heart is a little broken and battered

Don't cry for us
I'll shed no more tears
Just smile when you think of me
As I will enjoy the memories of us throughout the years

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Wrong Song

There's a song she sings
Don't know it's words or name
All I know
When I hear it, it causes me pain

Memories come thick and fast
Thoughts of people, places
The past
A history best left behind
A dream, nightmare brought to mind

The hurts, the anger
Loss and pain
A child broken
Left living in shame

It wasn't my fault
I live with the guilt
I shouldn't have earned
I cry in the dark
For the child left burnt

I wash and I scrub
But never get clean
The ones who hurt me
Left me torn at the seams

A drink doesn't help
So I don't bother now
Just walk away, alone
Take time to dwell

A smart remark
Breaks into my thoughts
Helps set me loose
From the shambles in my mind

I never hear the words
Of the song you sing
Just the memories it triggers
That race to the front
A mind full of darkness
Shadows and ghosts
Do you know
As a child
What I wished for the most
To not be me

Even now
When I hear the opening chords
Just of that song
I still wish
It hadn't been me

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Not Your Bitch

My name's not bitch
My name's not whore
My place is not down on the floor

I am not slut
I am not slave
I am not here to wear your rage

I have a name
I have a face
This is my time, my place

I choose my life
I choose my fate
I choose to live without your hate

Who do you think you are
That you get to hurt me
Why do you think you can
When I don't deserve it
Just stop
Turn around and walk away
I am free
And I don't need your pain

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